Just a silly 3am love song, but I like it. Anyone wanna put it to music? I'm tone deaf and arythmic... as you might be able to tell from the "metre"...
Writing Songs That You Should Sing
I dreamed a night ago, or two
That I had fallen hopelessly in love with you
I dreamed that we had sparked and flamed
And lain with one another naked and entirely unashamed
And in the dream I’d lost you some way
Perhaps you’d died, or gone away
But I was happy to have done so
For the chunk of my heart you’d taken below
(to the underworld or Australia, it really didn’t say)
Left me so much lighter than I’ve been
these real-life days
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Wuddup Facebook
Mmm. Yay for streaming my blog on facebook. Oh, facebook. I love and hate you so much. You are like my website version of Zac Efron: so irresistable, and yet such a cakeface. Seriously though, the blog is much nicer in non-generic-blue-and-white-crackbook form. You should click the link. Go on, do it. I'll pay you. In hugs.
In news not related to my unhealthy fascination with teenage Disney stars, I've been doing some writing that I will attempt to make worthwhile enough to post sometime in the near future. My trouble is that my life is so boring that I get little inspiration from it, and so I can't really think of anything to write about. Someone give me a topic. No seriously. Someone tell me something random to write about and I will write you a story. Or a poem. Or an Oscar-winning Hollywood screenplay. It will be fun and joyous and wonderful. OK that's all for now. I'm going to go perv over Rome on DVD.
PS go see Enchanted.
PPS James Marsden OMG.
PPPS Seriously, his cheekbones.
PPPPS You could cut glass with that shit.
In news not related to my unhealthy fascination with teenage Disney stars, I've been doing some writing that I will attempt to make worthwhile enough to post sometime in the near future. My trouble is that my life is so boring that I get little inspiration from it, and so I can't really think of anything to write about. Someone give me a topic. No seriously. Someone tell me something random to write about and I will write you a story. Or a poem. Or an Oscar-winning Hollywood screenplay. It will be fun and joyous and wonderful. OK that's all for now. I'm going to go perv over Rome on DVD.
PS go see Enchanted.
PPS James Marsden OMG.
PPPS Seriously, his cheekbones.
PPPPS You could cut glass with that shit.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Prophets
Wow. How long has it been since I uploaded this puppy? I guess I haven't really written much worthwhile lately, and I'm also not sure if there are more than, like, 3 people who read this. Hey, here's a thought, if you are reading this, and even if you have nothing even remotely interesting to say about it, drop me a line so I have an idea of whether or not it's actually worth it to update this thing. I do enjoy writing in it when the mood strikes me. Anyway, a poem:
Prophets
This poem is fake,
She said, before beginning.
But all the same,
It follows such:
We devour one another with abandon
And watching on the couch
A film with friends
The awkward silence made us giggle
For we knew why the air was alive
With that electric crackle
And coming home
Had barely time to wonder how
One stealthy hand on my inner thigh
Got us through the entire movie
These days there is little time for contemplation.
And passing her counterfeit bill to the jewellers
She said, you see?
Nothing will be this real,
The poets have been lying,
Prophesying
Prophets
This poem is fake,
She said, before beginning.
But all the same,
It follows such:
We devour one another with abandon
And watching on the couch
A film with friends
The awkward silence made us giggle
For we knew why the air was alive
With that electric crackle
And coming home
Had barely time to wonder how
One stealthy hand on my inner thigh
Got us through the entire movie
These days there is little time for contemplation.
And passing her counterfeit bill to the jewellers
She said, you see?
Nothing will be this real,
The poets have been lying,
Prophesying
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Something Random
“I am sick of being cooped up in here!”
“What do you mean, ‘cooped up in here’!? We’re all in here! I’m here. I am here with you.”
“You think because we’re fucking I’m happy?”
She froze, and instantly there was an icy anger in her gaze, muscles clenching across her face as though from the point of impact of a slap; they stared, eyes dark, hard, and glittering with malice, suspended at their opposite ends of the room. Then she turned, a sharp corner navigated briskly, and throwing words over her shoulder, shook off room and occupant.
“Fine. That’s fine.”
Then turning at the top of the stairs thought better of her benignity.
“Don’t let me make you miserable. I didn’t know. I don’t know. You find something to make you happy, I’m not here with you anymore.” Then slamming the door; and down the hall came shrieks of agony from the portrait on the wall and in the kitchen he kicked the stove on a pivot yelling FUCK and sloshed liquid over his hand from the mug in it.
*
Elly arrived at the house one afternoon in mid-November, flakes of early snow on her shoulders and flaming hair, a patch of colour on the skin of each cheek taut in a white smile with red lips, asking where he was as she pulled off her gloves. A sort of awe followed her through the dark house as she pulled cold into it from outside still clinging to her clothes and walked through the halls as if indifferent to the contrast she made against them. When he caught her in the upstairs hall by the door to the old room now full of the bones of rodents and a persistent scraping and whinnying he was halted, stunned as though literally and he looked only at her, noticing not the difference she made in the green-grey halls, noticing only the hair in wisps escaping an elastic, the tendrils pulled back from her face, tight white skin and freckles and the redness of each cheek, snow on her shoes. A glow, or perhaps just the outdoor cold hovering around her and away from her, and he could only stare, and she still smiled so wide and laughed a small laugh bigger than anything else in the house or the city or the sky outside reaching up indefinitely to the clouds and the birds and past those stars and planets and a million asteroids in a belt circling an alien moon.
“Hi, you.”
*
And she was too much like she had always been, whereas he had altered, a complete change from one extreme to another and back to a middle ground that no one from either end of his life recognized. They kissed on the stair, she going down and he followed her, emerging from the room at the top of the house with the bones and scuffling, not asleep as she had thought, and caught her by the elbow, looking at her still as though at a puzzle or a problem, an equation walking through his halls and writing herself over all the walls on top of the striped wallpaper in the attic and over the concrete slabs of the kitchen and on baseboards and doorframes and on top of the shelves where he searched for something unrelated or for nothing at all or for a distraction from a million different things. Brow furrowed he simply stared, as though confused, irritated even, fingers on the crook of her arm tightening and pulling her back up to the step she had just left empty for him, an unconscious tightening of the muscles in his arm, and she took it to mean what it would have if it weren’t for the creases in between his eyebrows and the sunken sockets of the two dark eyes glittering under the furrow and suddenly he recognized what he hadn’t been able to find until he saw it in the thousand details of her face up close to his and felt her breathing close to his mouth and saw her eyes darting between his lips and eyes.
*
We’ll wait until it ends
What ends?
These things. All these things we hate.
These things in this house? Those dark things in corners in this house and outside?
And in other houses. All of those things.
We’ll just wait?
We have to.
Just wait. We’ll just wait, then.
We have to.
*
“We were walking I think, by a river maybe? No, in a park, it was winter – December – and there was frost, like there is now, and I slipped on a stone maybe, or a leaf – it was something broad because it was covered in frost which made it slippery, not something that was sticking out for me to trip on – and, and I didn’t know you well at that point – you know that thing you have? – the laugh and the crinkle, or the quizzical look, it seems harsh to people who don’t know you and I still didn’t know you – and I didn’t think to laugh it off, I just sort of – sort of… I don’t know, but you laughed, and I was so worried about what the crinkles by your eyes meant right then and I remember I panicked because I didn’t know and I thought if I didn’t know then that meant there was some sort of secret key I didn’t have and I would never have and you would just continue laughing and I would continue slipping on leaves. It was – I’m serious! – it was terrible. Was, I mean, then, now it’s funny.”
“I don’t remember you slipping on any leaves. And I wouldn’t laugh at you!”
“Well then it was a rock, maybe.”
“With you, always laughing with you.”
“That is a talent.”
“What is? I am a talent, for sure.”
“To laugh with me when I’m not laughing.”
“I’ll make you laugh, just wait.”
*
“What do you mean, ‘cooped up in here’!? We’re all in here! I’m here. I am here with you.”
“You think because we’re fucking I’m happy?”
She froze, and instantly there was an icy anger in her gaze, muscles clenching across her face as though from the point of impact of a slap; they stared, eyes dark, hard, and glittering with malice, suspended at their opposite ends of the room. Then she turned, a sharp corner navigated briskly, and throwing words over her shoulder, shook off room and occupant.
“Fine. That’s fine.”
Then turning at the top of the stairs thought better of her benignity.
“Don’t let me make you miserable. I didn’t know. I don’t know. You find something to make you happy, I’m not here with you anymore.” Then slamming the door; and down the hall came shrieks of agony from the portrait on the wall and in the kitchen he kicked the stove on a pivot yelling FUCK and sloshed liquid over his hand from the mug in it.
*
Elly arrived at the house one afternoon in mid-November, flakes of early snow on her shoulders and flaming hair, a patch of colour on the skin of each cheek taut in a white smile with red lips, asking where he was as she pulled off her gloves. A sort of awe followed her through the dark house as she pulled cold into it from outside still clinging to her clothes and walked through the halls as if indifferent to the contrast she made against them. When he caught her in the upstairs hall by the door to the old room now full of the bones of rodents and a persistent scraping and whinnying he was halted, stunned as though literally and he looked only at her, noticing not the difference she made in the green-grey halls, noticing only the hair in wisps escaping an elastic, the tendrils pulled back from her face, tight white skin and freckles and the redness of each cheek, snow on her shoes. A glow, or perhaps just the outdoor cold hovering around her and away from her, and he could only stare, and she still smiled so wide and laughed a small laugh bigger than anything else in the house or the city or the sky outside reaching up indefinitely to the clouds and the birds and past those stars and planets and a million asteroids in a belt circling an alien moon.
“Hi, you.”
*
And she was too much like she had always been, whereas he had altered, a complete change from one extreme to another and back to a middle ground that no one from either end of his life recognized. They kissed on the stair, she going down and he followed her, emerging from the room at the top of the house with the bones and scuffling, not asleep as she had thought, and caught her by the elbow, looking at her still as though at a puzzle or a problem, an equation walking through his halls and writing herself over all the walls on top of the striped wallpaper in the attic and over the concrete slabs of the kitchen and on baseboards and doorframes and on top of the shelves where he searched for something unrelated or for nothing at all or for a distraction from a million different things. Brow furrowed he simply stared, as though confused, irritated even, fingers on the crook of her arm tightening and pulling her back up to the step she had just left empty for him, an unconscious tightening of the muscles in his arm, and she took it to mean what it would have if it weren’t for the creases in between his eyebrows and the sunken sockets of the two dark eyes glittering under the furrow and suddenly he recognized what he hadn’t been able to find until he saw it in the thousand details of her face up close to his and felt her breathing close to his mouth and saw her eyes darting between his lips and eyes.
*
We’ll wait until it ends
What ends?
These things. All these things we hate.
These things in this house? Those dark things in corners in this house and outside?
And in other houses. All of those things.
We’ll just wait?
We have to.
Just wait. We’ll just wait, then.
We have to.
*
“We were walking I think, by a river maybe? No, in a park, it was winter – December – and there was frost, like there is now, and I slipped on a stone maybe, or a leaf – it was something broad because it was covered in frost which made it slippery, not something that was sticking out for me to trip on – and, and I didn’t know you well at that point – you know that thing you have? – the laugh and the crinkle, or the quizzical look, it seems harsh to people who don’t know you and I still didn’t know you – and I didn’t think to laugh it off, I just sort of – sort of… I don’t know, but you laughed, and I was so worried about what the crinkles by your eyes meant right then and I remember I panicked because I didn’t know and I thought if I didn’t know then that meant there was some sort of secret key I didn’t have and I would never have and you would just continue laughing and I would continue slipping on leaves. It was – I’m serious! – it was terrible. Was, I mean, then, now it’s funny.”
“I don’t remember you slipping on any leaves. And I wouldn’t laugh at you!”
“Well then it was a rock, maybe.”
“With you, always laughing with you.”
“That is a talent.”
“What is? I am a talent, for sure.”
“To laugh with me when I’m not laughing.”
“I’ll make you laugh, just wait.”
*
Friday, April 20, 2007
YAY!
Since I am generally an excited sort of person, I am going to blog about all of the things that are currently exciting me. Because there are several:
1) I am excited about this summer, and the fact that I have a job that is hard, but so far tolerable and even quite satisfying in an "I just busted my ass for 8 hours, and my feet and back hurt, and I've run up and down the stairs about six hundred times because I kept forgetting things on different floors, and I feel like I've been stewing in urine and mop water and I probably smell like it too, but damn those bathrooms are CLEAN" sort of way, not to mention the fact that said job pays enough for me to be able to spend my entire first paycheque on clothes, pay rent, AND save for England, AT THE SAME TIME.
2) The part about the clothes. Seriously, I am going to throw out everything I own and just completely restock. Good god, it has been SO LONG. Mmmm tank tops and hooded sweatshirts. Sandals. FLAAATS! SUNDRESSES!!!!!
3) Living in my NEW Sweet Digs, with my NEW Sweet Roommate! We will watch lots of Arrested Development, have nerdy conversations about Lord of the Rings over Cheerios (except I don't really like Cheerios, but I'm going for aesthetic here. Just roll with it.) and go out cruising in his car and pick up babes. The babes will be for him. Mostly.
4) Summer. There is sun in the summertime. Sun means several things, including, but certainly not limited to: shorts, skirts, flip flops, not ski jackets, freckles, tans (not likely, but I can dream), frolicking about outside, lying on the beach, eating ice cream (something I do year round, but not always while slightly sunburned and wearing only the bottom half of a bikini that is being pulled down by a dog), being warm outside at night, FUN, not drowning while attempting to walk places, and skin cancer. That last one is not so good, but nothing is perfect. Give the sun a break. You are giving the sun an inferiority complex. Are YOU perfect? I didn't think so. You probably have skin cancer or something. I'd call that a defect.
5) Improv in the summer! This will be awesome. I feel as though that is enough said.
6) Sketch comedy in the summer! This could potentially be included in the Sweet Digs/Roommate section, but there may be other people involved, and besides, proper categorization is so overrated.
7) Fun. I anticipate a large amount of fun in the near future. I like fun.
8) Regina Spektor tomorrow night!! Something I've sort of forgotten about until now what with all the other haps, but OH MAN. I'm so gay for her. She rocks.
9) Harry Potter SEVEN. Even though after it comes out I will have nothing left to live for. But we will address that problem when it arises. She better let Harry live. She just better had. Unless he dies a REALLY good death. Like... I don't even know. It would have to be so good my mind wouldn't even be able to comprehend it, and then I wouldn't like that either, because I would feel stupid for not getting it and I wouldn't really know what had happened. So he just better live, I think. And she better keep Ginny around, too. This whole All-The-People-Harry-Truly-Loves-Dying-Untimely-Deaths thing is getting a bit old.
10) ENGLAND. Oh wow. Except the excitement for that is sort of dulled, since it will happen after the summer is over, and right now I want summer to start and continue FOREVER, but trust me, soon I will be completely incontinent with glee.
11) HEROES. And the babies I am going to have with Mohinder.
12) School being DONE, for a WHOLE YEAR. Procrastinating and slacking off, one may not realize, is extremely stressful. Especially when one has such high expectations of oneself as I do, and one does not enjoy feeling like a useless schlub of butter (maybe mouldy butter, since regular butter is still good for things like putting on bread and baking and taking off rings that have got too tight). Ironically, I am excited to be out of school so I can READ. I plan on devouring the library. But not literally. Well, maybe a little.
13) Breaking in my new fancy racing-type swimsuit. I will learn to do the front crawl in a straight line before the summer is out, damnit! As I said, high expectations.
14) Going home for a week. Though the hideously early morning commute to work will be a pain, I have had a hankering for some good old fashioned hometown life at the 'rents. And I think a week will be just enough to fulfill my craving and also make me slightly sick of it, and thus ready to break in the SWEET DIGS.
15) Capital letters, apparently.
The end. I think I'll go dance around and hum tunelessly and generally be sickeningly good-natured. Avoid me at all costs. HooRAH!
1) I am excited about this summer, and the fact that I have a job that is hard, but so far tolerable and even quite satisfying in an "I just busted my ass for 8 hours, and my feet and back hurt, and I've run up and down the stairs about six hundred times because I kept forgetting things on different floors, and I feel like I've been stewing in urine and mop water and I probably smell like it too, but damn those bathrooms are CLEAN" sort of way, not to mention the fact that said job pays enough for me to be able to spend my entire first paycheque on clothes, pay rent, AND save for England, AT THE SAME TIME.
2) The part about the clothes. Seriously, I am going to throw out everything I own and just completely restock. Good god, it has been SO LONG. Mmmm tank tops and hooded sweatshirts. Sandals. FLAAATS! SUNDRESSES!!!!!
3) Living in my NEW Sweet Digs, with my NEW Sweet Roommate! We will watch lots of Arrested Development, have nerdy conversations about Lord of the Rings over Cheerios (except I don't really like Cheerios, but I'm going for aesthetic here. Just roll with it.) and go out cruising in his car and pick up babes. The babes will be for him. Mostly.
4) Summer. There is sun in the summertime. Sun means several things, including, but certainly not limited to: shorts, skirts, flip flops, not ski jackets, freckles, tans (not likely, but I can dream), frolicking about outside, lying on the beach, eating ice cream (something I do year round, but not always while slightly sunburned and wearing only the bottom half of a bikini that is being pulled down by a dog), being warm outside at night, FUN, not drowning while attempting to walk places, and skin cancer. That last one is not so good, but nothing is perfect. Give the sun a break. You are giving the sun an inferiority complex. Are YOU perfect? I didn't think so. You probably have skin cancer or something. I'd call that a defect.
5) Improv in the summer! This will be awesome. I feel as though that is enough said.
6) Sketch comedy in the summer! This could potentially be included in the Sweet Digs/Roommate section, but there may be other people involved, and besides, proper categorization is so overrated.
7) Fun. I anticipate a large amount of fun in the near future. I like fun.
8) Regina Spektor tomorrow night!! Something I've sort of forgotten about until now what with all the other haps, but OH MAN. I'm so gay for her. She rocks.
9) Harry Potter SEVEN. Even though after it comes out I will have nothing left to live for. But we will address that problem when it arises. She better let Harry live. She just better had. Unless he dies a REALLY good death. Like... I don't even know. It would have to be so good my mind wouldn't even be able to comprehend it, and then I wouldn't like that either, because I would feel stupid for not getting it and I wouldn't really know what had happened. So he just better live, I think. And she better keep Ginny around, too. This whole All-The-People-Harry-Truly-Loves-Dying-Untimely-Deaths thing is getting a bit old.
10) ENGLAND. Oh wow. Except the excitement for that is sort of dulled, since it will happen after the summer is over, and right now I want summer to start and continue FOREVER, but trust me, soon I will be completely incontinent with glee.
11) HEROES. And the babies I am going to have with Mohinder.
12) School being DONE, for a WHOLE YEAR. Procrastinating and slacking off, one may not realize, is extremely stressful. Especially when one has such high expectations of oneself as I do, and one does not enjoy feeling like a useless schlub of butter (maybe mouldy butter, since regular butter is still good for things like putting on bread and baking and taking off rings that have got too tight). Ironically, I am excited to be out of school so I can READ. I plan on devouring the library. But not literally. Well, maybe a little.
13) Breaking in my new fancy racing-type swimsuit. I will learn to do the front crawl in a straight line before the summer is out, damnit! As I said, high expectations.
14) Going home for a week. Though the hideously early morning commute to work will be a pain, I have had a hankering for some good old fashioned hometown life at the 'rents. And I think a week will be just enough to fulfill my craving and also make me slightly sick of it, and thus ready to break in the SWEET DIGS.
15) Capital letters, apparently.
The end. I think I'll go dance around and hum tunelessly and generally be sickeningly good-natured. Avoid me at all costs. HooRAH!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Fish!
I'm becoming increasingly irritated by this whole idea of taking pride in one's taste in music, as though instinctively responding to certain sounds and lyrics and combinations thereof instead of others is some sort of elite skill. As though those who listen to "good music" are of superior intellect and talent. But I don't quite see how one can take pride something created by someone else entirely.
I could make this into a long, rambling and deeply boring rant, but I think I won't. I will save essentially repeating myself for 9 pages for my research paper. I'll need all the strength I've got.
In other news, I started my first official day of real work today. It was a lot of toilet scrubbing magic. In actuality, though, it wasn't too bad; the work was pretty easy, and it seemed to go by fairly quickly. My bones and joints are sufficiently achy and creaky though, which only furthers my growing suspicion that I am actually a 73-year-old arthritic woman in disguise. And now, for whatever reason, I am capping off the day by doing more cleaning at home before I go to bed. But I am drinking orange juice and listening to Ray LaMontagne (and may I say, I am extremely proud of myself for his skill at incorporating spanish guitar into modern ballads and sounding so darn pretty while doing so) as I clean, which I wasn't allowed to do at work, so I guess that's cool. Anyway, my back hurts, so I think I'll go prepare a hot pack at watch Matlock.
GoodNIGHT.
I could make this into a long, rambling and deeply boring rant, but I think I won't. I will save essentially repeating myself for 9 pages for my research paper. I'll need all the strength I've got.
In other news, I started my first official day of real work today. It was a lot of toilet scrubbing magic. In actuality, though, it wasn't too bad; the work was pretty easy, and it seemed to go by fairly quickly. My bones and joints are sufficiently achy and creaky though, which only furthers my growing suspicion that I am actually a 73-year-old arthritic woman in disguise. And now, for whatever reason, I am capping off the day by doing more cleaning at home before I go to bed. But I am drinking orange juice and listening to Ray LaMontagne (and may I say, I am extremely proud of myself for his skill at incorporating spanish guitar into modern ballads and sounding so darn pretty while doing so) as I clean, which I wasn't allowed to do at work, so I guess that's cool. Anyway, my back hurts, so I think I'll go prepare a hot pack at watch Matlock.
GoodNIGHT.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Art
So I was browsing some pictures of celebrities wearing pretty clothes earlier, as one is wont to do (solely to look at the clothes, I swear), when I happened to notice a banner advertising some reality show at the top of my screen that flashed a picture of a man and a woman in sequence, and said something to the effect of "Mom AND diva; the perfect woman!" and "Heartthrob! Suuuuuuper famous recording artist! Seriously, you've heard of him! We promise!" and then there was a picture of both of them, and it said something like "Hopelessy, ridiculously, FAMOUSLY in love!" So after I had cleaned the vomit out of my keyboard, I realized I sort of recognized them, and then of course I became reeeaally reeeeeally curious -- curious in a way I can never seem to become about Augustinian doctrine or Foucault's theory of author function -- so I Googled. It turns out it was some British pap whore (paparazzi whore -- it's a phrase I invented. I think the revolting conotation suits it.) couple called Katie Price and Peter Andre, of whom I had vaguely heard. All told, it wasn't a very exciting Google. But then I hit Image Search, and everything changed...
http://ops.tamu.edu/kilroy/BF2S/Katie-Price(Jordan.jpg
The wink! The hat! The kissy face! The thumbs-up COVERING HER NIPPLES! It's... it's beautiful. It's art. The way her one fist sort of squishes into her boob like it's some sort of grotesque giant silicone pillow... I can't stop staring at it. I always knew the British were classy, but... Linsday Lohan has NOTHING on this shit! Paris Hilton is MILES behind! Why is there none of this going on on the North American C-list?? I demand more hand-bras and lazy eyes! THIS, my friends, is sex appeal.
http://ops.tamu.edu/kilroy/BF2S/Katie-Price(Jordan.jpg
The wink! The hat! The kissy face! The thumbs-up COVERING HER NIPPLES! It's... it's beautiful. It's art. The way her one fist sort of squishes into her boob like it's some sort of grotesque giant silicone pillow... I can't stop staring at it. I always knew the British were classy, but... Linsday Lohan has NOTHING on this shit! Paris Hilton is MILES behind! Why is there none of this going on on the North American C-list?? I demand more hand-bras and lazy eyes! THIS, my friends, is sex appeal.
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